When Dave and I got married we just had the dream life. Lots and Lots of money, a nice apartment and later buying our own brand new home, nice cars, a beautiful and big expensive dog, We both worked a lot and went to school full time. We never had less than 10k in the bank so that was always reassuring. I had nothing to complain about. Now im not going to school and I cant find a job, I always wanted to go back to school but my credits dont transfer so I dont want to start all over again. Dave is not working, I cant get many hours. It stressful but were still taken care of. We have good vehicles, good friends, good family, money in the bank, and a nice place to live with nice things. We can pay our bills, pay our mortgage, and go on a nice date and still be ok. We have been incredibly blessed. Dave is going to buy me a new car hopefully this week, (if he can find the one he wants) its going to be another new SUV like we had before but this time he wants a new Land Rover instead of the Santa Fe we had last time. Im not complaining ill take what I get and be happy =] This will be the permanent car for the baby (I cant imagine having to put a car seat in anything besides an SUV).
I was always very skinny and tiny and fit, than I got married and we ate our every meal and we were to busy to work out very often and it really got the best of me (dont worry, im still wayy hott), So I have been working out often this whole year (starting in December) and I said I have to be back in fantastic shape before we have any kids. I had time since we were waiting to start a family. Well surprise, surprise =] we're now having a little baby. There were things I wanted to get done before starting a family and I didnt work as hard as I could have on them or even start some things I wanted cause I 'had time'.
I have some ink, yes this is a surprise to some but, i was rebellious before dave stepped in to the picture. Anyway, I have some ink on my hip area (this is what im concerned with), and I thought that I would have enough time to get that ink on my hip area 'taken care of' before a baby, obviously I cant and now when I have my baby everyone and their dog will see it, and im not thrilled about that. But this makes me who I am.
Taylor Swift one of the most beautiful and real celebrities EVER, wrote this beautiful song called Innocent and it is simply. AMAZING. In it she says:
it's all right, just wait and see
Your string of lights are still bright to me
Oh, who you are is not where you've been
You're still an innocent
This is sooo true, everything I did in my past is exactly that. My past. It has made me who I am, even if im a huge brat sometimes or all the time I still know im a good person, I do what im supposed to, im a wife, a soon to be mommy, a homemaker, and hard worker. I know how to weed the lawn and take care of it, dust, sanitize, and carpet clean, and do the laundry and put it away. I love my family and my friends, and most of all I love Dave and taking care of him. I love when he asks me to help him with homework (which is not often), I love when he asks me to rub his back, and make him a snack. I love when he asks me to hold the flashlight while he works on the cars or to keep him company =] I hate when he asks for me to quit talking so he can work on his homework though... haha I always have soooo much to say to him. I love to bug him.
Dave loves me even though im not perfect, and even though I have made endless mistakes in my lifetime. He loves all my imperfections and scars from piercings and ink, well maybe he doesnt love those scars or the ink BUT he accepts it. He is fantasic and sacrifices sooo much for me. I couldn't ask for anyone better to start a family with =]
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